godDAMNit, Lindsay...

...didn't you get my letter???

I'm a fan of Lindsay Lohan. I really am. I think she's a very good actress. Her one-two-three punch of The Parent Trap, Freaky Friday, and Mean Girls was very impressive. But I have officially given up hope. If she can't last ONE DAY out of rehab WITH AN ANKLE BRACELET ON without using BOTH ALCOHOL AND COCAINE, there is just no hope for her. And I say this with great sadness, because the girl should have been able to deal with this. But apparently all the money in the world can't buy you responsible parents or good common sense. It seems that all the future holds for her now is a juicy "True Hollywood Story."

My aunt is an alcoholic. It sucks. It's like there's two people: the sober one and the drinking one. And you only want to know one of them. But then at some point you realize it's NOT really two people; it's only one, and it always will be. It's a maddening disease, and I've given up trying to understand it. I've also given up being angry at those who have it. When you've been through enough of it, the only emotion you don't run out of is incredible sadness. The whole thing is just so very sad.

I'm being serious now. This girl could've been a beautiful, successful, respected actress and star. Instead, she's just an addict, and yes, a trainwreck. It hurts to think about it. In every article, interview, and public appearance I've seen of her, she's seemed to have exactly the personality of a desperate addict: charming and fun on the outside, intensely troubled underneath.

I just want to wish her the best in fighting this, if she's even still trying. And I want to tell all the haters, who call her a "whore," a "spoiled bitch," and even a "bad actress" (that last one's a flat-out lie) to get a life, and stop being petty. You don't know her, and you can't judge. The one thing that cannot be denied is that she's an ADDICT, and it's not pretty. So I hereby wean myself off of her. But I hold no ill will. She has a disease, and it's killing her. The least we all can do is not add insult to injury.

Brought to you by: Adam, in an unexpected surge of compassion.

Addendum: My aunt recently had a relapse in her own alcoholism, which I suppose is why I'm feeling so personally connected to this. I just wanted my readers to know how I feel, and that I still wish Lindsay the best, though my hopes are not high. God, I can't imagine having followed the whole River Phoenix thing when it was happening... that must've been brutal.